Thursday, June 3, 2010

NIPTO, Day 116

(6:30 PM)
Goooood _______ <-- insert whatever time of day you're reading this!

I was going to go on a walk just now. But it's thundering. And it doesn't look so hot outside. Actually, it looks pretty hot outside... It doesn't look very good for walking!

Today has been a semi-eventful day...
I slept in. (Glorious! Even though I didn't get my morning walk in, it was nice to sleeep)
I finished a book. (My Sister's Keeper. It didn't end how I expected it to. I cried too. Sad sad ending.)
I helped Mom&Hannah clean out the school room/rearrange it.
Dad just put up our "Secret Screen" at the garage door. It works! YAY!

(9:30 PM)
I went on a walk anyways. It didn't rain. Really. It sprinkled a little. But not too much. My clothing didn't get wet. I'm rambling.

I'm a little angry. But there's nothing I can do about it... so I should really let it go. But it's hard to let things that hit close go. Maybe I shouldn't let it go... maybe it's something I need to address... I just don't know how. Ya know? Especially since there are people I love involved. It makes confrontation so much harder.

(11:25 PM)
Wow. That was crazy. There are some things in life I just don't understand. And I'm realizing that I may never understand most of these things!
OOOOOOOOKay. I'm doing NIPTO now. I need to chill out. Breathe. Breathe God in. Exhale stress and anger/other negative emotions.

Romans 15:23-33
 23But now that there is no more place for me to work in these regions, and since I have been longing for many years to see you, 24I plan to do so when I go to Spain. I hope to visit you while passing through and to have you assist me on my journey there, after I have enjoyed your company for a while.

Basically: I want to visit you, but there's no work for me to do. But I still want to see y'all. So I'll drop by when I go to Spain. (Which is somewhere I want to go byyyyy the way!) And then hopefully you can help me out a little after I've spent some quality time with you! :D (AYT-->Abby Yackley Translation)

25Now, however, I am on my way to Jerusalem in the service of the saints there. 26For Macedonia and Achaia were pleased to make a contribution for the poor among the saints in Jerusalem. 27They were pleased to do it, and indeed they owe it to them. For if the Gentiles have shared in the Jews' spiritual blessings, they owe it to the Jews to share with them their material blessings.

Sooooo Paul's headed out to Jerusalem. The other places mentioned were generous and willing to help those in Jerusalem. They were pleased to do it. Happy. Willing. It says that they owed it to them. Because the Gentiles shared the Jews' spiritual blessings. They at least owed their material blessings to the Jews.  Interesting. 

28So after I have completed this task and have made sure that they have received this fruit, I will go to Spain and visit you on the way. 29I know that when I come to you, I will come in the full measure of the blessing of Christ.

He had to finish what he was doing. And he had to make sure that it was fruitful. Only then would he go to Spain. But he knew that when he did go to Rome, he would come with the blessing of God.

 30I urge you, brothers, by our Lord Jesus Christ and by the love of the Spirit, to join me in my struggle by praying to God for me.

He doesn't say rid me of my struggle. He says join me in my struggle. 
Joining in someone else's struggle is as simple and complex as praying for them. I feel like I'm joining in a couple people's struggles right now! 

31Pray that I may be rescued from the unbelievers in Judea and that my service in Jerusalem may be acceptable to the saints there, 32so that by God's will I may come to you with joy and together with you be refreshed.

He was persecuted. But people were in prayer a lot for these people who were out on the front lines of the battle. 
Paul didn't want to go to Rome unless it was by God's will. And if God's will included being persecuted (no one knows how) then he would go through with it. But he wanted God's will for his life. He was willing to give up so much in order to do what God wanted him to do. 
I'm selfish. There are things in my life that I don't want to give up. Sometimes you have to give everything up... and I'm not sure if I'm ready for that.

33The God of peace be with you all. Amen.

I'm praying that you have God's peace right now. Whether it's just slowing down and sensing God's presence or peace in a relationship, I'm praying that you have it. 
Heaven knows (literally) that I need God's peace right now! 

I hope you all had a good Thursday! I'm going to sleep now. Because it's late. And I'm tired. And kind of emotionally drained.
Good bye!

P.S. Again, there wasn't a visible 100 Days of Holiness Day 33 post. Hm.

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